April 21st

And Here We Are...

This past month has been fantastic.  Of course it has been up and down with adjusting to having 2 full-time kids instead of one. But I feel extremely lucky because my husband was able to take the full 6 weeks of FMLA and help me a ton in that adjustment. My 3 year old daughter had her daddy's full attention, and she loved it! I loved it too, and now we are starting to be able to transition to a full family experience-- spending time with everyone together as the newborn becomes more able to interact and allow me to do so. :) I still feel bad for the dog, as he has even less of my attention than before...which was very little. But I'm sure he'll survive.

As I get back into resumed efforts toward household chores, I realize I've let things slide somewhat. But I feel ok about it, and am ready to pick things back up. Unfortunately that lovely cleaned-out craft room again became a dumping ground...but I'm not giving up. I just have to clean it out again, and continue to strive to find a way to have it consistently stay nice. I guess I haven't determined a different way to go about things yet to avoid it becoming a stashing place, yet I'll keep working on that. Work-in-progress is the name of the game.

I find myself less motivated to sit down and write about where I am in the categories I have on this blog...maybe because I haven't done much. Though I'm looking forward to sharing more perhaps next month, when I can give a better run-down of the latest improvements. I'll be getting back into better exercise habits, begin preparations for a wardrobe overhaul, try some hair style solutions, and keep practicing my make-up application. In all the areas, the main goal is balance. So here's to going for that. :)

Spring is Here! :)

Due Dates and Deadlines

So I'm cutting it close on my 21st of each month posting goal.  But I made it!  Unfortunately the quality may not be up to par, but at least I'm here.

And my due date of March 1st was taken over by my being induced on February 27th.  It's a little random how it all came about (doctors were worried about my having possible gestational diabetes, my grandma was having a 90th birthday situation, my husband wanted to make sure the baby was born in February.....)-- but it all worked out okay. I was so grateful I didn't have to wait longer to have my baby boy come out. And I am extremely grateful that he was born healthy and well! 

My 3 year old is adjusting pretty well...but there are times when it's hard for her to have her mom occupied. We're all working on adjustments, and I hope we figure out how to do it well. We'll sure do our best! <3

A Couple Days Late...

Days to Come

So my new-found goal of posting on the 21st of each month lasted only a month...yet it is not the end of the world. In earlier times of my life, I would have had great difficulty continuing because I had failed in what I originally intended. But my progression in how I feel about goal setting and making improvements has led me to understand that as long as I am moving in a positive direction, I don't need to worry too much about small set-backs. Perfection is not absolutely necessary for improvement. Yes, perfection is still the ideal-- yet as far as the goals I make for myself I know there are times when I will not make the cut.

I intended to make sure I got to the blog on the 21st. It was a Saturday. I probably should have had the time. What ended up happening was me spending a few hours trying to finish a book I was reading before I had to take it back to the library since it was due that day. Then there were some errands to do, and a toddler to take care of. Then a fun social event to get ready for that evening, and going to that event with my husband. I probably could have stayed up late in the night to accomplish my task...yet for some reason I did not feel strongly about needing to. Maybe that's weakness and laziness, or just giving in to mediocrity. Or maybe it didn't register very strongly on the "important" scale at the time. Whatever the case, here I am to report on the latest.

My baby boy will be born this week! At least that's what the doctor indicated at my last appointment. I'll visit the doctor tomorrow and most likely be scheduled to be induced by the end of the week.  As I've been spending time with my 3-year-old daughter, I've been thinking about how these are the last days that it will be just her and me. I'm sure it will be an adjustment for her to not be the main focus of the majority of my time. I'm glad I've been able to appreciate the time I've had with her...even when she tests my patience with her sassy attitude and whining. We went up to Bridal Veil Falls in Provo Canyon one day on the way to visit a friend. I am always so intrigued by her excitement about seemingly "ordinary" things-- yet to her, it all still seems new. She loved looking at the trees and the flowing river and the big rocks as we made our way on the path to the waterfall. Life is renewed every time a child comes into the world, and I'm looking forward to the days to come! <3

New Year, New Goal

Here I Am, As Promised :)

January 21st, 2015

I'm off to a good start. At the start of the year I mentioned I would now at least post the 21st of each month. So here I am.

This picture I'm using for the post really describes what has filled my life, and also represents accomplishments and what I have been working with.

My great husband and sweet 3-year-old daughter are a source of much joy....as well as a source of learning experiences. :) I am grateful for the ways I have improved in my relationships with them, and the ways we have all grown together. Another source of joy and learning is my amazing 14-year-old step-daughter, who is not present in this picture nor has been very present in our lives lately. Yet I continue to hope that she will still feel a part of our family as we think of her, love her, and want the best for her always. <3

Our American Bulldog/Boxer dog, Dozer, has also been a learning experience and trial for me for a while. I'm not sure why I've been struggling with liking him as much as our other dogs-- I only know that I have not had much patience with him during his puppy learning stage. He has been destructive and pretty much annoying (although him getting on my nerves might have to do something with my pregnancy??). I have had much anxiety and anger with this dog. Yet I'm glad to say that I have much improved in the past month or so. I am better at keeping things in perspective, and I'm having better control of my emotions when dealing with our dog's naughty nature. I really feel my actions towards the dog in the past have influenced my 3-year-old and how she treats the dog (and her parents). So now that I'm more calm, I have seen an improved difference in myself and in her.

I did not participate in the sledding day fun, as I was about 7 months pregnant at the time. I enjoyed the sunny day and getting out and doing something, and watching my family have fun. Not that I didn't still over-worry about things (like safety on the sled and the dog roaming around.) I am just grateful to be so healthy and to have opportunities to enjoy life! I truly feel blessed.

As for the sledding metaphor...the ride down is worth the hike back up. Life has its ups and downs (in this case, the ups being more difficult than the downs.) It is all part of the experience. You can't really have one without the other. And that's what makes living so grand. The enjoyment comes alongside great effort and sometimes struggle. It is tiring at times, yet also brings rest and fun.  With the improvements I've been striving for in my life, I really feel increasingly strengthened having to climb back up the same hills each time. It actually IS getting easier and I feel much more capable to accomplish what I set out to do.

I am updating some of the individual sections of this blog today as well. I know change and improvement is possible at any stage in life. :)

2015!

The Sky is the Limit!

So I have pretty much abandoned my blog for a while. But I have a new goal. Since my birthday is on the 21st of June, my intent is to post at least once a month on the 21st of each month. That will keep me fairly current and give me a do-able (and memorable) goal.

The past couple months have been great! Of course there have been ups and downs, but overall I have really felt like I'm getting there...that life is good and that I'm becoming a better person.  I have recognized my blessings more, despite things not being ideal. I have made better efforts in my home and with my family, and it makes a great difference in myself and in those around me. I still have much to learn regarding patience and trying to avoid dumb mistakes- (both of these have involved our bulldog/boxer puppy who isn't much of a puppy but still young...). Yet I am extremely hopeful and excited for the coming year!  I will briefly post the latest in the various categories in which I have done something recently.

Here's to a great year!! :)

It's A Boy!! 

Now that it's official as of today, I am announcing the newest part of my life...that a baby boy is coming in March!  So as was noted, my fashion goals will be put on hold for a bit-- (although a friend gave me some cute maternity clothes, so that has helped some) :)  However, there is still plenty to keep me occupied with Friendships, Family Life, Fitness, Faith, Face, and Food.

As a sum-up, I've been lucky to re-connect with good friends, finally scrubbed the grout in my kitchen tile, kept exercising (though not running anymore), had many opportunities for faith-strengthening, bought some new mascara (to replace the dried up stuff I'd been using for 2 years), and tried some new recipes!  Life is wonderful! <3

Gone Fishing

Lest you think I've abandoned my cause and my blog-- I haven't. I've just been doing other things, or working on becoming better but not writing about it. I'm not sure how to work with the blog format as far as updating the tab categories, but I'll just keep adding new things to the same page and putting the date on there. I'll occasionally do a new post on the homepage-- but it's all fairly random.

I still believe in goals and deadlines, even though I've struggled much of my life with that process. Most the time it hasn't worked out because I was really unrealistic and demanding of more from myself. However, with a four-year timeline I think I'll be just fine. :) I know I've improved in my life gradually anyway, but with this endeavor I really want to make sure that I get to where I want to be in a specified amount of time. It is still going to push me because I'm still reluctant to change much in some areas. Yet it is not too overwhelming because it is absolutely do-able for the kind of person I am.

I've postponed the Fashion area for now because...I'm expecting a baby in March! This is an amazing blessing and miracle, and I am so grateful! That said, I won't need to re-do my wardrobe quite yet. :) For the next year or so I really want to get a handle on Family Life (specifically home management/cleaning/organizing) and Face (make-up and such.)  I've also been making some strides in the Food category and getting outside of my comfort zone.

Life is funny and crazy and difficult and enjoyable-- and I've felt all of those things the past few months. I am grateful to have the life I have and for the opportunity to make it better everyday. :)