This has been rough
I was notably (to myself) missing from this blog in August-- yet there's a reason for that. I didn't want to post anything until I had accomplished most of my home cleaning goals. (Or I told myself I didn't 'get' to post anything until I had completed certain tasks...as motivation or something.)
Anyway, it's been an interesting Summer. Trying out this generic Prozac medication and having my brain and psyche come out of some sort of fog. It's kind of weird. Feeling "normal" or as close as one can be to that-- in their own kind of way.
One of the notable tasks that required the pictured tools above was our tub. I knew it was a task that I had been putting off. And it's not like I hadn't wiped it down a few times and such. But I had no idea what it was really going to take. I hadn't realized I had neglected this part of our home so much that I would need to use such effort to remove the layers of hard water/soap/whatever build-up that was there. I actually scraped the stuff off because nothing else would work. (And I didn't want to use really harsh chemicals even if they would have worked.)
Kind of symbolic. Of how I'm scraping away all the residue that has built up emotionally and otherwise throughout my life. And I'm uncovering who I really am and have the potential to become.
It's looking nice and shiny and clean and fresh-- just like our tub. :)
