What Do I Really Want?
It has been quite the month since I last posted. Do you ever feel like you're just now waking up from the life you've been living and ready to take on the new day? Well, that's what I've felt like.
I know my life has been good up to this point. I know all the experiences I have had have helped me learn and grow. It's just so strange to get to this part of my life and feel like I'm only NOW starting to live. I think re-birth happens multiple times in different ways. Yes, I was "born again" when I was baptized in water as an 8 year old. Yet the true meaning and depth of that rebirth has only now made sense and become true and real and permanent in my life. And it has come about because of simple, small, daily steps on a path I have chosen.
So now what? There does not seem to be limits to what can be accomplished. I just have to decide what I really want now. What is most important? What and who do I REALLY want to be?
Let me mention one of my little accomplishments. I am now a habitual flosser. You might think that's trivial, but it's not to me. I have always wanted to do better at flossing, and after each dentist visit (scraping the plaque :( ) I was good for a few days but then gave up. Not anymore. I floss every night after I brush my teeth. Even when I don't feel like it.
Another little accomplishment is staying on track for a reading challenge of The Book of Mormon. I have had multiple opportunities to do this throughout my life, but as my former self did-- I started out strong only to taper off and give up. I am doing the daily, consistent effort now. I love it. I'm so happy!
I have not yet been able to clearly identify and put into words what I really want. That is my next goal. Plan on seeing that post next. :)
